Longing for more. Pt. II

This in particular scene pictured above is the scene I referred to a year ago when I mentioned the scene from “East Of Eden”. Lately, this movie has intrigued me for a few reasons—and I cannot exactly break it down to why? 

Everything seems so true in the picture.

It feels like I have this giant lack of trust with nearly everyone and this gaping hole in my heart that feels empty. I’m trying my best to find out what it’s missing. The spotlight and the limelight have treated me right but so much seems like a giant illusion. 

I need a steadiness in my life for once. The past four years have been filled with so much change that it’s been hard to adjust to anything. I pray for the best. 

I am sick to death of having to fight to keep certain friends when everyone just wants to moan and groan on how our relationship has been. If you wanna fix it…let’s fix it. If you wanna complain, go tell a wall. Obviously, if I admit fault, there is nothing else I can do but apologize and wanna progress. Quit focusing on the past, unless you really wanna just feel sorry for yourself.

countryandwestern:

Time Magazine, May 6, 1974

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can hold my body down.

Good words of advice… I’ll try it.